love you like a sister;
12:07 am
sometimes i get mixed feelings about certain stuff. and it is irritating cos it makes you kind of emotional. and then i often feel inadequate. yes that very accurate word of describing how i feel sometimes. and then jerrall will say but i think you all are more than adequate. yes i really appreciate those words of comforting and cheering up. makes me feel like the few of us are like a small family or something. haha. the warmth of friendship.
CHERIE! (whose blog is so stagnant until douya beats her hands down) i hope your birthday was enjoyable though we made it simple. and i'm sure you will remember it for life because we walked so much and we were all complaining and dying. haha. but it felt good to lose myself in the music. i can see that you guys were also pretty much lost in the music too. haha.
i'm looking forward to steamboat on tues (: and hopefully i can crash wq's lectures on monday.
love you like a sister;
9:33 pm
okay since my dear friend eugene(eyecandy king) tagged me to do it i shall be responsive for once. haha.
Lighthouse Family
High
When you're close to tears remember
Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
Though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high
And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you
Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love
Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
Cause even the impossible
Is easy when we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high
And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you
Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love
High, high, high, high ...
And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you
Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love (x3)
ENJOY :)
WEIQIN, DOUYA, PHY, KAI, HUIHUI
i wonder if any of my friends still actively uses Friendster. i log in every now and then and find no particular activity going on with my friends. haha. okay i guess it's almost like officially dying off. because now everyone seems to like Facebook much better.
you know when people ask me if i'm going to work and when i'm working and all, a part of me doesn't feel like working. i just feel like taking these months to sit around and do leisure stuff and think about what i want to do in future and understand myself better. i think it's probably like the longest ever break you are going to get your entire life because once you start studying and working it's back to having that crazy life. and ya when you do retire it's also a break but do you actually think you have that youth and energy to like do whatever you feel like doing anymore?
and the other day my mom asked me what my ideal age of getting married is. i said 26 or 27 then i said but that's quite hard. she thought so too. just look at us we're going to be 20 this year. how are we ever going to get married in like 6 years time? i marvel at mr yee really. he's like a dad at 26. wow. or 27 whatever. but i'm very excited to see my friends get married!
and i think i love talking if i can't talk i'll probably just die. of course talking means talking to people i enjoy talking to not random people ya.
love you like a sister;
2:15 am
love you like a sister;
12:52 am
and wow i'm getting so dependent on you. never thought that day would come that i would be feeling like i'm one part of two. but now i finally know what it feels like :) it's a fresh experience.
i can't believe how gross i am that just because douya said she was tired that i decided to be lazy and sleep in and we missed today's sun for tanning! and we really both thought it looked cloudy earlier on and it was going to rain! tmr good weather please! i promise to force myself out of bed. i can't wait for friday to finally see him.
love you like a sister;
3:56 pm
love you like a sister;
6:16 pm
why is it like that? like sometimes you feel your life to be fun and exciting and at other times you feel like it's just super rubbish. and no matter how many people are out there for you, you're still pretty much alone. i wonder how many people feel like this.
i never used to think much about being alone, lonely whatever else but now having a long break and having no homework to do and nothing to study, i start feeling all of it. besides never thinking about it before, i've never felt it before too. so why?
is it because i'm going to be considered an adult after this year and i still do not know what i want to do? and many people have asked me what i want to study and i said i don't know. i really don't know. how come everyone knows?
thanks douya by the way for these few days by always being there for me when i'm upset. really appreciate it :) sorry to bother you. but as i said, sometimes i feel like telling someone rather than writing down in my personal diary because such inanimate objects can't give you any reply or reaction.
and surprisingly when you're in a relationship you tend to feel a lot weaker. or maybe only me. i kind of dislike that feeling. no wonder moppy ever once told me before why the grass is always greener on the other side.
i can't believe i really couldn't wake up today to send my brother off i'm really very pissed at myself. what the hell was i doing? even though his return proved that he had much less time for me or make that hardly or never, i still miss him now. someone please return my brother to me. the one who came back the last trip who had time for me.
you know sometimes i really dislike my parents because they are so obviously bias. they always scold me for the most stupid reasons they would never scold my bro and i end up crying like some small kid. i hate it okay. i really do. that's why i'm starting to think it sucks to stay at home. i hate that feeling of crumbling when i'm crying and i know that i cannot change the situation. my parents just love me less.
i think i talk too much. but it should be okay right since afterall this is my blog for me to look back on in future.
okay i have to be positive. today i'm going to meet eugene and dawn and saturday i'm going to meet a small group of them too.
love you like a sister;
12:26 am
oh by the way, douya wants to announce her new blog!
love you like a sister;
5:18 am
today feels like a good day. i like days where i meet the friends i like, meet new people or meet friends whom i haven't seen for a long time. just feels good. and being out with phi, wq, shiqi and pam lim was fun :D they never fail to make me laugh like hell, they are super funny and always damn on to do stupid and embarrassing stuff. but i enjoyed the company really. and we took super lots of photos but i swear i'm not the cam-whore!
so i went to wq's hall today and met xingyue whom i haven't seen in forever and made friends with her 2 friends gwenlyn and jareth. i think wq's hall friends all look very nice. then at hall 9 which is wq's hall i met sheryl lee from sc and wyna. then later in the day i met tammy, then vivian and huiying. somehow whether or not you're close to the person, just meeting someone you know can put a smile on your face. i think i'm put into a good mood easily.
and thurs i'm going to meet dawn and eugene and eugene wants to cam-whore! did i just say that? :)
love you like a sister;
2:02 am
it's the first day of 2008 and i'm sitting here alone at home typing this. well at least sleepover at wq's house was fun to my own definition :) i enjoyed it. felt like the first few hours of '08 were happy so it's a positive start. besides the few friends who weren't there, someone else special wasn't there and it did feel like there was something missing. haha. okay i'm trying to be discreet but it's obvious. whateverrrr.
and jerrall says if you dream hard enough maybe it'll come true. haha.
in 2008, other than all the acedemic wishes and all, i want to stay true to myself and not lose myself and who i am. i want to live to feel happy with myself.
love you like a sister;
8:42 pm